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Baby puppies! Especially chihuahua puppies! Even more especially the Doctor!!! *squee*

Your dating personality profile: Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously. Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Funny 2. Religious 3. Liberal 4. Adventurous 5. Big-Hearted 6. Practical 7. Romantic 8. Traditional 9. Sensual 10. Outgoing

Your date match profile: Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart. Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things. Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Funny 2. Adventurous 3. Religious 4. Practical 5. Outgoing 6. Big-Hearted 7. Conservative 8. Traditional 9. Sensual 10. Intellectual

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Tried to get my puppy to bark...it worked a bit! I'll probably try again when he's more excited...but for now, yeah! Woof!

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Damn Vicki of TARDIS!!!

Oh yes! That's what it said! My MARCON badge had a typo...well, I
don't know if it was really a typo, but more of a touch of cranial
flatulence, i.e., a brain fart, since you know, "n" is on the opposite
side of the keyboard from "e" -- it was supposed to be Dame Vicki
of TARDIS, but you know, Damn Vicki is funny, so I didn't bother getting
it fixed! Turns out I got a good deal of funny mileage out of it, so
I'm thrilled!

MARCON 44 -- British Invasion turned out absolutely brilliant! In
preparation, since due to my real life situation, I was unable to do the
costumes I'd hoped for, but I still couldn't bear to attend without some
kind of genre related attire, so, I set about painting T-shirts. I felt
bad that all that costuming talk in the past few months with scarletsherlock [Courtney] and seramercury
[Michelle] had been for nought, so I decided to surprise them with
Doctor Who shirts, to go with mine! Of course my shirt featured a
painting of David Tennant in front, with "TENNANT 10" in the back, like
a sports jersey, while Courtney got "ECCLESTON 9" and Michelle got
"DAVISON 5"! They were all fun to paint...you know I'd never seriously
drawn Eccleston before, let alone painted him on a shirt -- he was a
challenge! I find it much harder to draw short hair!!! I also painted
myself two more shirts -- one depicts THE BLUE SUIT and the other is THE
BROWN SUIT! So...fun clothes taken care of, I was set!

We got checked in at the hotel in plenty of time...now we found out that
not only do you have to pay for wireless internet access at the Hyatt,
you can only use it for one laptop at a time!!! So, we used Michelle's,
while mine just sat there taking up space. Bad form, Hyatt Hotels...so
we're gonna try Drury next year. :P Otherwise, the room was very nice
-- turns out we were on a party floor! LOLZ

We got our panelist packets, and a measly ONE extra ribbon to stick onto
the bottom of our badges, starting, of course, with the one we get for
being panelists...well, I think Michelle got two, which was awesome...I
don't really know where to find those things, or more accurately, don't
really think to seek them out actively while I'm conventioning...but
some folks had lengths and lengths of the things!!!

One of the most amazing things...now I think this was Friday...I ran
into my old club, the USS COLUMBUS. They had a lovely display on their
table, in memory of club members and family who had passed on, and they
included my brother Tim! I was really touched that they would do that,
even though I haven't officially been a member in a couple of years,
they were still thoughtful and kind enough to do that. I'm very
grateful and I salute them!

Courtney and I had our first panel at 8:30 that evening, so we had time
to go out to dinner -- we considered walking to Betty's, which I
would've been all about if it hadn't been so damn humid -- as it was, I
was not about to deal with that -- so, we went to Barley's, which was
much closer. The food was good...we amazingly didn't have any beer
there, which kind of sucked because that's what Barley's is known
for...but that was OK, because when we got back, after milling around,
playing in the dealer's room, saying hello to friends, etc., etc., we
were in the bar -- Courtney was nervous about panelling for the first
time, so a beer was in order to calm down!

Soon, it was time -- Intro To British Sci-Fi, which thankfully, was
dominated by Doctor Who -- I've watched a few other Brit SF things;
Torchwood, Sarah Jane Adventures, of course, with a smattering of
Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, an episode or two of My Hero,
Hyperspace, and various other things I can't name off the top of my
head, but my main thing is the Doctor. I was able to improv this just
fine, and what was really awesome was panelist Simon R. Green, who was
one of the Guests of Honor. Not only was he British, and very funny,
his Doctor Who knowledge was incredible! It was a pleasure sharing the
panel with him! Courtney did very well her first time out -- even if
the majority in the room favoured the Tenth Doctor, she represented
number Nine quite nicely. The only thing that was a bummer is that the
Whose Line Is It, Anyway panel was at the same time, and I'd have loved
to see and maybe play it!!!

Afterwards, both Courtney and Michelle had panels...Michelle on
Farscape, Courtney on Vampires...I stuck around for the vampires...and
again, Court did well! Refreshingly, there wasn't a huge Twilight
fangirl presence, so the mild dissing of that franchise was well
tolerated! LOLZ I'm still trying to read the book, but it's just not
holding my interest...*sigh* But I digress...after the panel, there was
a lot of interesting chatting which was fun!

All our panels were done for the evening, so we just continued
conventioning till it got late and we ordered pizza! Unfortunately,
both Michelle and Courtney got a little sick from it -- I didn't, so I
was feeling quite fine through the whole weekend.

Saturday morning was early -- we had a 10am panel on the Sarah Jane
Adventures. This is the panel I was the most nervous about, because
although I've seen a few episodes, I really hadn't had the time to get
completely caught up with it -- I'm so glad I know a little something
about improvisation!!! I needn't have worried, though -- there were
plenty of well-versed panelists there to carry on -- particularly a 12
year old girl, Audrey...panelist Joe's daughter, who was wearing her
Fourth Doctor attire and was really awesome! Speaking of attire --
Courtney, Michelle and I were wearing our Nine, Five and Ten shirts, and
were totally noticed!!! People took our pictures -- I hope I find them
online somewhere so I can post them too!!!

After that panel, Courtney had a Lord of the Rings panel, and I went
with Michelle to the Fan Club Summit panel, where she represented
Starbase Karma, and there was someone from...was it Friends of the Time
Lord? That was fairly short, so Michelle and I went to get food at the
food court, then we went back to the room -- Michelle still wasn't
feeling her best, so she spent more time there than I did -- She wore
my BROWN SUIT, while I wore my TARDIS I'd made this Halloween, and I ran
off to the dealer's room and to say hello to friends and just basically
ran around and watched people and took pictures and had lots of fun.
We'd all decided to meet at Dottore Who, the production by The Confused
Greenies. That was an absolute blast!!! The company was wonderful and
hilarious, and the guy dressed like Ten was particularly awesome, as was
the Redshirt Dude!!! I got my picture taken at some point during the
day with the lady dressed like Five...they'd all been running around the
con all day in costume...so it was great to see it come together like
that! I wanted to stay at the end for improv games...but Courtney and
Michelle ran out so fast, and I wanted to go get dinner with them, and
the hungries kind of outweighed the improv urge, but dinner was a good
thing too, so it was cool!

We hung out in the room for a bit before going to the masquerade.
Michelle had to leave because she had a Stargate panel to do. Courtney
and I stayed till intermission, then we separated, Courtney to a
Battlestar Galactica panel, Michelle to a Buffy Sing Along and me to
mill about, have a strawberry martini, and to watch Midnight at
Midnight! *squee*

After all that, we FINALLY located the consuite and KARAOKE!!! Of
course, I signed up for a song -- To Sir With Love, as it happens. Let
me now be honest and tell you I was more than a little perturbed that
Michelle and Courtney BOTH bailed before I was even on deck!!!!! I do
understand that they were still feeling the effects of the EVIL PIZZA OF
DOOM that I somehow escaped the wrath of...but gee, it was really just a
few minutes more, dudes, and karaoke is much more fun when there's
someone you know in the audience...Ah well, the song went well, though
the key was a little lower than I expected, still, all in all, nobody
BOOed me, and I didn't suck! LOLZ I watched a few more singers...oh,
right before me was the guy who played the Redshirt Dude from the
Greenies...he sang through The Eye of the Tiger as Kermit The Frog!!!
Hilarious! Later he and his "Ten" got up and tunelessly talked through
I Walk The Line...not quite as funny for any right reasons, but quite
amusing for all kinds of wrong reasons! *giggle* There was a fair
rendition of Paradise By The Dashboard Light, and I had a nice
conversation with a good looking guy who couldn't find any song he
wanted to sing...The party seemed to be breaking up a bit by then -- I
might have signed up for more, but since I did have a panel in the
morning, I decided to go back to the room. Then, my key didn't work.
So, I came in, turned on the light and unwound at my own pace...not that
it mattered so much with the party raging on a few doors down -- I
wasn't particularly bothered as much as amused by it! What did that
girl say? "I'm so drunk, I almost 'slept with' [it might have been the
nasty way of saying it] that girl?" Or something else drunkenly stupid
to that effect! That was hilarious!!!

Next morning was early. Courtney and Michelle were out of it, so they
chose to sleep in while I went to find breakfast. I scoped out the
green room, where panelists can get free snacks and drinks, but they
were refilling the coffee pot at the time, so I went to Java's Espresso
and got a nice, big latte and went on to the food court and got a proper
egg and bacon breakfast. I saw Roy while I was waiting for my food --
I'd met him earlier in the con, and even earlier saw his Facebook posts
to Courtney! And now he's my Facebook friend as well -- YAY!!! Then I
got my food and my friend Lee invited me to sit with him and another
friend, who left, then another friend, Sidley sat with us -- and YAY
again! After that, I went with Lee to the Star Trek movie panel, where
I met Michelle and Courtney. That turned out to be a fun panel as well.
The fandom sure has a lot of things to nitpick...but that's part of the
fun, and part of fandom since the start of it all...whenever that was!
Trekkies or Holmesians, who's worse? Well...I'd call it about even! And
I should know, since I'm both! HAHAHA!!!


Right after that, I went to my Doctor Who: Via The Void panel while
Courtney and Michelle went to pack up our stuff and check out. Simon
Green was on this panel too, and so was Arnold Blumberg, another guest
of honor. This panel was so much fun!!! The Whovian knowledge and
enthusiasm represented here was amazing! I felt entirely in my element
-- it was very enjoyable!!! Following that, I decided to take one more
swing by the Dealers' Room, fully expecting to stick around till the
Eureka panel Michelle had mentioned she wanted to check out, but she and
Court were ready to go before that happened, so that was cool -- pretty
much everything I was interested in had already happened, so I felt fine
leaving at that point! I can hardly wait till next year!!!


Now...this MARCON felt different than others -- the program book was
thinner, and the regular panelist bios were missing, which I honestly
thought SUCKED. I wrote one, and took some time doing it -- it's not
easy to write a coherent bio in 150 words or so -- and it's not just for
my own not being published, I've always enjoyed reading what everyone
else had to say, and learning something about my fellow panelists,
besides just the guests of honor. However, they *almost* made up for
that by including ALL the panelist's names on the official T-shirt!!!
Now that ROCKED!!!!! Still, if I had to choose one inclusion over the
other, I think the bio would have been nicer...BOTH would even be
better!!!

The masquerade was entertaining as ever...but it seemed a lot more low
key than in the past. I mean, there were no huge lines outside the
room, we got seated right away, etc. *shrug* Am I remembering
correctly that panelists once got preferred seating? Doesn't really
matter, but I could've sworn that was the case. I dunno...one
complaint, though. When it came time to vote for the audience pick,
they didn't mention the voting form till the end, then they didn't raise
the lights enough to fill it out, THEN they only came around our side of
the audience to pick up the ballots ONCE before most of us had a chance
to fill it out! I got frustrated and never did vote! Aside from that,
though, the masquerade was great!

Some highlights were all the wonderful Doctor Who costumes...there were
several Tens, including a very young one, and several Fours, and some
adorable little K-9s and some AWESOME Daleks! Also plenty of Klingons,
and there's nothing like being a relatively short human riding up and
down the elevators with a bunch of TALL Klingons! You know, I even saw
Sesshoumaru! I should've taken a picture! I got to catch up with a lot
of old friends and made a few new ones...and the folks at WHONA seemed
to get a huge kick out of "Damn Vicki", which made me squee! Courtney
and Michelle are awesome roomies, and we missed Joy and Dave, who
usually come to this con, but were unable to this year...well, maybe
next time!!!

So...hope you enjoyed my recap! If you see [or if you took] any pix of
me, please point me in the right direction to see them! XD

Discovered Picasa [thanks, Roy!] and have put up a bunch of pix from MARCON, which was amazing, and a bunch of pix of my puppy, who is even more amazing! Enjoy!

MARCON 44 2009

Puppy Pix

This looked like a good one! More often than not, I seek attention, but when I finally get it, I often don't know what to do with it, alas! [still love it, though! LOLZ]

Your results:
You are Uhura

Uhura 70% Chekov 60% Mr. Scott 50% Will Riker 50% Deanna Troi 50% James T. Kirk (Captain) 45% Jean-Luc Picard 45% Beverly Crusher 45% Geordi LaForge 45% An Expendable Character (Redshirt) 45% Leonard McCoy (Bones) 40% Worf 30% Spock 25% Data 24% Mr. Sulu 0%

You are a good communicator with a pleasant soft-spoken voice. Also a talented singer.

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Parlor Tricks performed tonight -- I had a great time! I feel like I'm finally making some progress, and everyone really seemed up for the show...more than usual, I mean!


So...the real reason I'm posting here:

( more puppy picspam! )

I saw the new Star Trek film, and I LOVED IT!!!!!!!

( Oh, all right...I'll cut for spoilers, but only just this once because I'm in the mood... )


Improv practice went very well tonight -- we've got a show tomorrow! Hopefully the show will be even better!

( Now under the cut...allons-y! :( )

Well..just a little one! *squee*

( MOAR PUPPEH )

Instead of sitting around feeling sorry for myself on so many levels, I decided to gak this from jaded_jamie and sit around answering this meme instead!


( The 65 question meme of death! )

( Meet The Doctor! )

Quite a day...I had a doctor's appointment, and I was planning to go to work after...but it just didn't work out that way!

Actually, I'd had an injury a couple months ago that had left a large scab and it wasn't healing right, so I went to the dermatologist [my regular doctor referred me] to have it seen to. So...I hadn't eaten and I'd already gone through another harrowing experience of watching my mom fall down -- she's fine, she just couldn't stop herself going down after tripping over a plastic trash bag in her room -- but anyway, at the doctor's office I had to lie on a table, and she raised me up high...which freaked me out to start with -- sometimes my fear of heights gets really intense -- then she injected something to numb up my ankle, and I got light headed and panicky! They lowered me, told me to breathe and continued with the procedure and got me some juice to quickly boost my sugar. When I started feeling better, the nurse told me I looked much better -- seems I'd turned very pale. I felt terrible...just like I felt the one and only [so far] time I donated blood. I was very shaky till I got out and my parents took me to breakfast. Felt better after I ate, but it was still several hours before I felt more like myself again. Damn...one hell of a panic attack...or a reaction to the medication...or both. I feel pretty OK now, but that reaction meant that work was out of the question! I've missed a lot of work already, but there was no way I was gonna let myself feel that way at the office!!!

I stopped by a doggie gift shop and got me some chihuahua earrings! *giggle* Yesterday I bought a toy sized crate and a toy sized pet carrier...getting the chihuahua tomorrow after my acting class! I'll keep you all posted! :)

OK, I'm gonna try this -- I've been away from the drabbling for awhile, so since nschick did this one, I thought it would be fun. Any products of this meme may also be posted on other drabble communities I belong to that I haven't posted to yet...yeah, I know...

And so...

The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing from me. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level.

[Ooh...felt the need to include this: Don't worry if you don't wanna put it in your journal...do it if you want, don't do it if you don't, and don't let that stop you requesting a drabble!]

I'm also going to add a request that you also include a one word prompt. The fandom is Doctor Who -- right now I don't think I have the focus to touch anything else -- Ten's my favourite, but you know, why not...I will *attempt* other incarnations as well -- it's only 100 words, right?

Yeah...not quite ready for bed, which is probably not good, since I still have one more workday that I'll for sure have to get up early for...:P

I've started weight watchers again for the zillionth time...but this time it's the online version, since I don't have time for the meetings anymore! That's actually a good thing, since it means I'm more busy with singing, acting and church things, which I love doing a lot more than losing weight...*giggle* But, since I kind of need to do that for my health...

A few years ago, I was very nearly a vegetarian, and I'm considering going back to that, at least most of the time, because overall, I felt healthier on less meat. I intend to be flexible, however, and not limit myself...if I have a taste for bacon, I'm gonna have bacon...though this week, the fake variety has been just fine! Seriously, though, for the sake of convenience I've deferred to certain meals because they were easy and everybody liked them. Now it's just me and my parents, and it's just very different. It will be easier to eat what I want...not that I couldn't before...it's complicated...


I've got some things to draw -- I've had several prompts, but the emotional rollercoaster falling screaming crying grieving hell has not been very conducive to creativity. It's coming back, though...and I'm pretty sure I'll meet my deadline [for an art exchange in one of the communities]...


MARCON is coming...I'm excited, but again, due to my circumstances, proper costuming is doubtful, but still hopeful, since it's still a month away. I'll see what I can do! I don't want to give up yet...but I may have to downsize my ambitions.


*sigh* I really don't want to, but I suppose I'll have to try to sleep. I'm on a medication that I almost forgot to take tonight...had to eat with it, so I had an egg and toast as an after midnight snack! *hee* Also a couple cups of tea...usually doesn't keep me up, but who knows?!

Just a few things...

10.5 can be stable and survive being a metacrisis because his body was primarily grown from Time Lord stock...sure, there's that bit of Donna within, which makes him age and not regenerate, needing to eat and to sleep, which I contend that he did anyway, though perhaps not as often...but he still essentially was formed from the Doctor's hand -- Time Lord genetic material, which influenced his brain power, if nothing else, whereas Donna Noble assimilated the Doctor's mind, her body was still primarily human, and therefore couldn't handle the extra things in her head. She still had a human brain, he had a Time Lord brain. So, she must forget or die, while he is physically equipped to handle the human bits. That's my theory and I'm sticking to it until/unless canon contradicts it. So, I don't buy any of the fics in which 10.5's brain explodes. Figuratively OR literally.


[Edited the above to make more sense...yes, he's a good deal human, but his mind contains all the memories and is physically capable of doing so. In my opinion and for my own fic purposes, of course! What I'm trying to say is that he could physically contain the enhancements, she couldn't.]

Another thing -- I know that certain things that happen on Doctor Who may be less than plausible in the real world, or may be less than explainable in a pure science fiction context. I don't care. Doesn't bother me and I can enjoy it just as much or more whether the people are believable in their positions as they relate to their demographics or not. I wouldn't even be thinking about that if it hadn't been criticized in a few reaction posts on various communities.


You know, I had something else, but now I can't seem to recall it...so I'll leave this post as it is and edit or post again if/when I think about it! LOL!!!

Paid for my account, so I won't have to worry about insensitive targeted ads and I can edit my screwed up comments again! YAY!!!

LOVED IT!!!

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I like Peeps! My very good friend at church gave me a little Easter basket with blue Peeps and a stuffed blue chirping Peep! SWEET!!!

Now that's just plain scary -- I don't think I entered my birthday anywhere on that site...but dude, I *am* a Scorpio...*giggle*

You Look Like a Scorpio

It's likely you look very dramatic and perhaps even exotic. You have very intense (and sometimes haunting) eyes. You are neither thin nor fat. You have a strong build. You tend to gain weight easily, but you usually just put on muscle. Like most Scorpio people, you are passionate... probably to a fault. You are stubborn, jealous, protective, and very emotional.

Your Mind is Orange

Of all the mind types, yours is the quickest. You are usually thinking a mile a minute, and you could be thinking about anything at all. Your thoughts are often scattered and random - but they're also a lot of fun! You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about esoteric subjects, the meaning of life, and pop culture.

I get it that the ads are tailored to what's in the blog, I mean, it's obvious. But dammit, I do not want to see ads for decorative ways to display cremains. Bloody idiots.

ETA: Strangely enough, the ridiculousness of the situation has cheered me up. I want memes and quizzes. Now. XD

We picked up Tim's ashes from the funeral home today. Again, the funeral home staff was kind and lovely...but as soon as they brought them out, I handed my mom back her cane and went out to wait in the car. I had no idea how I was gonna react, but I started shaking and almost hyperventilating and I didn't want to faint or vomit or anything else dramatic, so I think I did the right thing. I think it was a combination of the emotion and a bit of low blood sugar, because I hadn't eaten since breakfast [not to mention the unfortunate timing of my cycle]...we had some hard candy in the car, so that, as well as getting some air and calming down a bit made me feel a little better. Then my parents came back with Tim's urn and personal effects. After a brief cry, I was OK and was able to actually look at them -- beautifully engraved green marble with pretty lettering -- it looks like a brick from a monument rather than a planter, which some urns resemble. My mom is much calmer and much more at peace, having Tim back where she can see him and know where he is. She's putting the urn in a place of honour at home until such time as my parents decide on a final place, or until they pass, then he will be interred with them. We will have our pastor over again, probably Monday, to read scripture, pray, and say a few words in Tim's presence. You know, I really loved my baby brother -- he was like my own child in many ways, and it just hurts like hell to have to say goodbye.

I'm gonna be OK, though. It would be wrong not to be. Right now, I'm having something to eat and watching Doctor Who and blogging...so I'm occupied and it's going to be alright. But right now, I'm using Time Lord code when I say that.

Thanks for being here for me -- it means a lot!

...we're picking up my brother's ashes...

At last...a worthy diversion! Sci-Fi channel is running Doctor Who practically all day!!! YES!!!

It's the long haired chihuahua I want for my next dog...hopefully sooner rather than later!

My friend called me back! Almost missed him again, dammit, but he did call me back [again] a few minutes later! It meant so much that he didn't give up!

It was a very good time, because I was in a very down mood before he called, and he made me feel better. Which brings me to all of you -- thanks so much for all the prayers, thoughts and kind words you've given me lately. It means so much to me, especially now!

...but sometimes not. Had a really good rehearsal for the Easter Sunday service. Singing about death and resurrection is very difficult...but the Resurrection does give me hope, and it's good for me to be with people -- they keep me from sinking into despair. Even so, after I left, I cried. Even though my brother died on April Fools Day, so very close to Easter, I am purposefully not going to let that ruin those days, though I may now remember them differently. I have a good friend who allowed bad memories that happened during her birthday month ruin that for her, and I refuse to do that to myself. I'm sure Tim wouldn't want that anymore than my grandparents would want my birthday month or my mom's birthday month ruined. I can be sad now...but I won't always be.


Oh, but Late Night Eggs is awesome! I tried them for the first time Sunday night, and I'm waiting for delivery right now! I'm glad my brother lives in their delivery area! LOL So, it's eggs for late dinner tonight! YAY! LOL Thanks scarletsherlock for mentioning them the last time we were together, even though we didn't actually go there at the time!


I'm not going back to work till Tuesday. I've got just about enough leave to do it, and if I have to go a day or so without pay, so be it. This is more important.

Tim was cremated today, but because his ashes weren't ready yet, our pastor will come again, probably Monday, for a proper send off. So glad he came over today anyway!

My brother is being cremated tomorrow, which is also when his obituary is running in the paper. Afterwards, my pastor is coming over to pray with us. This will be Tim's funeral, because he really didn't want a big ceremony or anything like that -- he talked to my mom about it quite often. I'm sure it will be beautiful.

Doing relatively OK today...went to improv practice and though I felt a bit off, I think I did more OK than sucky...but I missed a phone call I was expecting from a friend of mine. Called him back less than 5 minutes later, but he didn't pick up, so I left a lame message. Lame message is lame, so I called him again after improv and left another, slightly less lame message...just because I really do want to talk to him live and not just listen to his very nice voice mail message he left or just read the very nice email he'd sent earlier telling me he was gonna call. Dammit.

I'm trying not to be depressed about that. Earlier today I remembered something between me and Tim when he was a baby, and it just tore me up inside. It was a good, sweet memory, but very painful at the moment, probably because it was so sweet. I'm trying not to be depressed about that too. Also trying not to be depressed about the lameness I felt at improv in between the OK bits.

Good things, though...I got Chinese food for late lunch...it was actually dinner time. Happy about that, though a bit mad because that's why I missed my friend's call -- I was ordering and didn't hear the phone ring in time. Later for dinner...late dinner, yes, I know...my brother Scott baked chicken and it was awesome. He's a great cook! Also, ice cream helps.


I hope my friend calls back and we don't have to play phone tag, or he doesn't think I'm a crazy person for you know, leaving two messages...OK, I know that's just silly, but I've only known him since just before Christmas and I'm insecure...


Yesterday I treated myself to some new coloured pencils and a new drawing pad. That makes me happy.


We're gonna do an improv show next week -- the ayes had it when we took a vote. Are we ready? Yes and no. I voted yes because I'm willing to take the chance, and the majority of us are as well, and if we suck, we suck...but we really don't suck and I'm gonna trust that.

Tim will be cremated Wednesday, after which my parents will bring him home in an urn. I know that's gonna be difficult for everyone. I still haven't come home to spend the night, though my parents have been there since the weekend. [I've been by a few times to pick up things] I will come home soon -- I've been living at my brothers' houses for the past few days. I just really need more time to process things, and to deal with the emptiness.

I am getting a puppy. My parents are too. When my grandma died in '96, we got our Cosette, who really helped my mom -- saved her life, she's often said -- when my brother died, his dog...our Bowser, was taken to an animal shelter. That's all I'll say about that here except to note that it was what Tim would have wanted, and had been discussed while he was alive.


It's been difficult, but we're holding it together as much as possible. I probably won't go back to work until Thursday or so -- I still have people I need to inform and things to decide upon.


Anyway, in the next month or so, we'll be looking for puppies -- I've been wanting either a yorkie or a chihuahua for a long time now, so I'm going to make that happen. As for my parents, if they can find a husky or husky mix with odd coloured eyes, that would be perfect. In addition to the puppies, I'm considering a kitten...but most likely we'll stay with puppies only...we'll have to see.

The Twenty Question Meme
Gratefully gakked from jaded_jamie in my time of needing a meme to divert myself with!

( I suppose I should be polite and cut this mess... )

It was tonight, and it went very well! I am so glad that I was in it. I had such a wonderful time, and my friends there, including my instructor, were so wonderful to me in regards to my very recent and painful loss. My whole family came to see the show...my parents, my brothers and my future sister-in-law, who especially in the last few days, I've come to regard as simply my sister. I only really lost it once in the green room before the whole thing started...just started crying all of a sudden -- I don't even know what triggered it exactly -- thankfully, I was distracted by someone lining us all up for a photo. I managed to dry my tears and smile. It really helped. It was good that my scene was in the second half of the show in any case. It was funny too -- at one point, the lights went down in response to one of my lines -- as soon as the lights came back up, I raised my hand and said, "WE'RE NOT FINISHED!" and my partner and I continued the scene from there! What caused the confusion is that the lighting person was listening for my final line, only nobody bothered to mention that I was gonna say the exact same line in the middle of the scene as well! OOPS!!! *giggle* Even with that, it worked out awesomely!!! We managed to pull it off! Everyone was wonderful and rose to the occasion, and we raised a nice bit of funds for charity! I can hardly wait to see the video!


It's been a really horrible few days, but I've been so supported by so many wonderful friends -- my church, my LJ and Facebook flists, my acting colleagues -- thank you all so much.

This morning I helped my parents edit my brother's obituary. It will run in the local newspaper on Wednesday. It was such a sad thing to have to do...but the funeral home staff has been lovely. I could go on about many things...but I think I'll just leave it for now...maybe I'll post a meme or something distracting later if I need to...

I'll be honest -- I've been lying here, trying to sleep, doing nothing but crying. So to divert myself, I've gakked this from jaded_jamie, and will answer to the best of my ability, or attention span, whichever comes first...and since I write fanfic as well, the answers will address both reading and writing...

Fanfic Readers Meme

( Meme inside... )

It's strange the things you think about when you lose someone close to you. My future sister-in-law made lasagna for dinner, and I was thinking that I hadn't made lasagna in a long time -- mostly because Tim didn't like it and the leftovers probably wouldn't be eaten...

We have some salmon in the fridge that will likely go to waste -- salmon and rice was Tim's favorite, and right now I can't bring myself to cook it without him. I know I will eventually, and I'll think of him everytime I eat it, just like non-sticky rice with brown sauce reminds me of my grandmother, and tabasco sauce reminds me of my grandfather.

It's going to be a long time before I can bring myself to watch TruTV [formerly CourtTV], COPS or America's Most Wanted again. The thing is, those shows are something I never would have watched on my own, and never wanted to watch...but they were Tim's favourites, and I watched them with him to keep him company.

In the weeks and the days leading to his last day, we had some of the most fun times just hanging together. He introduced me to several films I would never have watched on my own -- some I liked, some I didn't, but that wasn't the point. On his last day, as he often did, he made it a point to tell each of us, my mom, my dad and me, that he loved us -- accompanied by a big, wonderful hug. That's something I'll always remember.

I finally saw Twilight. *sparkle*

Enjoyable, but nothing to obsess about.

I haven't read the books, and the story seemed unfinished...which is why there's a sequel underway.

Hmm...*sparkle*

From seramercury, who provided me with...well, read on! [Oh, and also edited now so it makes sense!]

1) Comment to this and I will give you 3 people.
2) Post this meme with your answers.
3) Provide pictures and the names of those 3 people.
4) Label which one you would marry, which one you would shag, and which one you'd throw off a cliff.


1. Patrick Stewart








Ah yes. Patrick Stewart. So very sexy, the Captain of the Enterprise, no less...and best of all, there would be no question about changing my name! In fact, as far as he's concerned, I did...but I really didn't...*giggle* So, marry Patrick Stewart!


2. Alan Rickman





Alan...and still so very shaggable! And so, shag Alan Rickman!


3. John Barrowman




Oh my God! Now that is one hot dude...great looks, lovely lovely voice...but, you know, I'm a girl and I just can't compete! Well, maybe one good shag before the cliff. And so, I shall throw John Barrowman off a cliff, but just a little one, with a nice soft landing, and maybe another shag for good measure...*hee*


OK, your turn now! HAHAHA!!!

Yes...photographic evidence exists! Here's a picture of my Saturday morning/afternoon method acting class: It's in the same room at the Ohio Theatre where I rehearse for symphony chorus...


( A cute bunch of actors... )

We're doing a showcase on Saturday, April 4 at the Columbus Children's Theatre. If you want more info, let me know!

Had a great time Saturday, then church on Sunday worked out very well in spite of all the scheduling problems and miscommunication...we're praying and working to make things better on that issue. This week will be pretty busy -- improv practice is earlier, I've got an extra acting meeting [hopefully everyone concerned will attend] and a tentative worship team meeting on Friday...oh yeah, and work too, which I need to get ready for. :P

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I dunno...I want to take the high road and not say anything, but argh. Too many drabbles all at once and separately, probably...

I wonder how I should start posting stuff at dwfiction, one big all at once thing? A load of separate drabble and ficlet entries...all I've got are drabbles and ficlets, but dammit, I've got a lot of them! I do hope someone notices. I hate how I'm just as bad about commenting as everybody else is, though. My internet time's been limited...not by choice, but by circumstance. That sucks, but what can you do?


I'm also [usually only mildly] frustrated at never being [knowingly? or is that just wishful thinking?] attractive to those I'm attracted to. I've got lots of male friends, but it's always been just friends. 80 to 99 percent of the time, that's exactly how I like it, but that little fractional percentage when I'd like them to look at me with hearts in their eyes...well...*sigh* I can deal with that, though. I always have. I'm actually not actively looking, but I'm theoretically open should the opportunity arise, but I've decided long ago that I will not just settle. Did that once, didn't like it. *giggle*


I officially despise my job. Yes, before you say anything, I'm grateful to have a job in this economy, and I have no plans to quit or to be fired or whatever. My job has great benefits. It still sucks. But it's not the time to chuck it. So I reserve the right to complain from time to time.


I am also very sad about Natasha Richardson. Although I've only seen her in a couple of things that I know of...Sherlock Holmes, and the really awesome film with Alan Rickman and Bill Nighy, Blow Dry, she made an impression on me. Some of you may remember, I believe it was during my third session of improv class, we had to choose a character -- "Pick a Dick" it was called -- we had to play any real life or fictional character whose name included any form of Dick or Richard. Although I ended up choosing Lucy Ricardo, which proved to be an excellent choice, I came very close to choosing Natasha Richardson -- mostly because she was my age [!], gorgeous...and married to Liam Neeson, whom I've always rather liked...even if I did almost walk out of his Les Miserables film [not due to him in specific, but rather due to the horrible things they did with the storyline, but I digress]...come to think of it, my third choice had been Wendy Richard, from Are You Being Served, who also died this year. :(



And, as I posted on Facebook...though I believe I have fully accepted Matt Smith as the Eleventh Doctor, and in a way, am looking forward to his upcoming portrayal, the very thought of David Tennant's Tenth Doctor regenerating at all makes me very sad indeed. For me, Tennant is my ideal Doctor. I love the Doctor in general, no matter who's playing him -- he's an amazing character, and I'll still be a fan when Eleven comes into play...but Ten is special to me. Although I get a bit dramatic sometimes, I'm really not an insane fangirl and accept and encourage other opinions, including dissenting ones...but dammit, the Tenth Doctor is my favourite, and that's that. *insert more giggling*


Oh, what else...oh yeah! I was good and didn't even mention my dear Ten while we watched those Jensen Ackles films -- I really liked Ten Inch Hero! That was so sweet!!! And I was right when I thought that my mom had in fact seen Devour -- she watches that kind of film all the time! LOLZ!!!!! But yeah...OK, I do like him and the other SPN boy...still don't fancy either one, but damn, I do like them! ;)


And now...I suppose I'd best be off. This was a semi-rant/vent/whatever...so, it is what it is. [eeek...my improv coach says that all the time]

See ya on Twitter, where they hardly ever @ reply to me...but at least I can read it at work! HAHAHA!!!!!!

Title: The Journey Back
Characters/Pairing: Rose
Rating: G
Summary: Rose finds her way back. Prompt: journey.

Spoilers/setting: Doomsday, series 4, Turn Left.

( The Journey Back )

Title: Change
Characters/Pairing: Rose, Ten
Rating: G
Summary: Rose adjusts to the new Doctor. Prompt: Black.

Spoilers/setting: Children In Need special, between Parting of the Ways
and The Christmas Invasion.

( Change )

Title: Shameful Silence
Characters/Pairing: Ten
Rating: G
Summary: When the silence is too loud. Prompt: Too much.

Spoilers/setting: Midnight.

( Shameful Silence )

Title: Turning Point
Characters/Pairing: Ten
Rating: G
Summary: The Doctor moves on. Prompt: Guilt.

Spoilers/setting: Journey's End.

( Turning Point )

Title: Gone
Characters/Pairing: Ten, Donna
Rating: G
Summary: She was gone. Prompt: Strangers.

Spoilers/setting: Journey's End.

( Gone )

Title: Homage
Characters/Pairing: Pompeii family.
Rating: G
Summary: A family pays homage. Prompt: Fire.

Spoilers/setting: Fires Of Pompeii.

( Homage )

Title: Homecoming
Characters/Pairing: Matron Cofelia [Miss Foster]
Rating: G
Summary: The Nanny's joy. Prompt: Joy.

Spoilers/setting: Partners In Crime.

( Homecoming )

Title: Waterfalls
Characters/Pairing: Donna, Ten
Rating: G
Summary: Donna waits in the spa. Prompt: Water

Spoilers/setting: Midnight.

( Waterfalls )